Saturday, March 19, 2016

Where Has the Time Gone?

It seems like just yesterday that I gave birth to a lil princess and now here I am with a not-so-lil princess in my midst. Believe it or not, my baby is about to graduate from Kindergarten on Monday and step into the world of elementary school.

sleeveless butterfly top from Guess / grey leggings from H&M / blue sandals from Ichigo Shoes / fuzzy backpack courtesy of TJ Leonardo

Our journey definitely hasn't been an easy one - that's for sure. As such, I just want to take this milestone as a chance to thank everyone who has been by our side every step of the way: my parents who took me back in with open arms when I left the babydaddy; my friends who double as babysitters and shoulders to cry on when the tutoring gets tough; and Darth Vader for being Syrena's father since her actual father has not been around. :p

Of course, I would also like to thank the big guy up high for blessing me with such a patient, low-maintenance, kind, malambing and stunningly gorgeous human being as my daughter.

You know, there are days when I feel absolutely empty and broken and this girl just comes into my room, gives me the biggest hug and comforts me like the mother I am supposed to be, and I have no idea why I deserved to give birth to someone so utterly perfect.

This miracle has saved me so many times in my life, it feels like she was a guardian angel sent to Earth to keep me sane. When I lost baby J, for example, it felt like the end of the world for me… but there she was with comforting words and hugs, and she just literally generally lights up my life in the most ineffable ways.

Yes, she can be an annoying pain in the butt and sometimes, I feel so trapped for having such a huge responsibility in my midst - one that I was by far not ready for when the time came - and yes, it hurt like a bitch to give birth to her… but Syrena is and will always be the biggest accomplishment of my life. I definitely have no regrets, no matter what we had to go through and experience to get here.

You are an absolute joy, my little munchkin. And even though you will probably be taller than me by next year and you hate it when I call you 'baby' (coz according to you, you're no longer a baby); you will always be my baby. And it will forever be me and you against the world. Forever and always. To infinity and beyond. I love you. Kick butt in Manresa, sweetie. :*