Saturday, November 18, 2023

Everyone has bad days.

I had one of the most disappointing experiences in my work life this week, and that's saying something because I genuinely, truly love my job.

If you've known me for a while now, you probably know that I was never a level-headed person. In fact, a lot of people would've called me a straight-up bitch. I was quick to get annoyed, to get angry, and to release my frustrations without thinking about how other people would feel.

As I've gotten older, however, I'd like to think that I've learned a few lessons along the way. Syrena played a pivotal role in that. In fact, he's the reason why I am who I am today.

Syrena has taught me the importance of patience. He helped me understand that people are simply... all built differently. You can't expect everyone to act the way you want them to nor can you control every single thing in your life.

While it is understandable that everybody has bad days, though, that doesn't give you the right to be an asshole to everybody all the time. It is also completely alright to be pissed at one person or even several people at once, but that doesn't mean that everyone else around you should be implicated, especially those who have no idea what pissed you off in the first place.

It takes a lot for me to get pissed to the point where I feel the need to scream nowadays, but that's how I felt this week. I bottled it up as much as I could and put on a professional face all throughout, even working extra hard to turn the tables and hopefully bring everyone's spirits back up. The minute I walked through the door at home, though, I screamed the loudest Hulk-screams I could muster.

Because that's what you do. If you come across a lot of people in your line of work, you should still get the job done and then just wait to release whatever emotions you feel when eyes are no longer on you. I do that in my home life too. When I feel down or pissed, and Syrena is home; I go to the bathroom to let those tears out.

Maybe it's just the me of today, but I believe that selfishness shouldn't have a place at work or in life, in general. Why should other people be affected by my sour mood? Why should I bring others down with me? Why should I ruin other people's days just because I'm having a bad day?

It takes rationality and a lot of effort to get into that mindset, sure, but I hope everyone learns to start thinking more about other people's feelings before they act or speak - or at the very least, learns to apologize when they've hurt someone. Let's all strive to be better people, please.

1 comment:

  1. Sorry to hear you had a bad day.