Sunday, December 21, 2014

Spoiling people makes me happy.

Spoiling people makes me happy.

So, if I genuinely like you (as a person, in general); I have most probably spoiled you at one point or another (if not to death). I have probably treated you at one point, bought you a random gift and helped you out as best I could every single time I knew you needed help. (I have a superhero complex. Sorry.)

Recently, however, it has come to my attention that I have stopped caring as much as I used to. In fact, I've been getting more and more stuff for myself instead of getting stuff for other people.

Of course, most of the stuff are geeky stuff; otherwise, they wouldn't really be that effective at making me happy. Check out these awesome finds from Fandom Trinkets, for example (segue award!):

red cover-up from Ichx's Clothing / Lord of the Rings ring necklace from Gerd / black Whatever flats from Forever 21 / Deathly Hallows bracelet and Westeros dress from Fandom Trinkets

It's a geeky dream come true!

I was initially a lil torn between feeling happy that I had stocked up on geekiness and feeling depressed because I no longer had anyone to spoil - especially with Christmas around the corner and with long overdue checks finally pouring in left and right!

The depression won out, though. In fact, it got so bad that I returned all of the Christmas gifts that I had previously bought for people I considered my "close friends".

This behaviour isn't completely unwarranted, though. I just became more human, so to speak. I think my superhero tendencies faded away the same time my heart broke for the umpteenth time last Halloween.

That's when I noticed that these people I considered my "closest friends" didn't really care about me very much. If I didn't contact them first, they would never even bother to contact me.

One of them even stopped talking to me completely because he got so fed up of my whining and another one of them only talked to me because she wanted something. And this is with all of them knowing how much heartbreak I went through, too! Friendship, my balls.

And the guy who broke my heart to begin with? He told his dad that the reason I hadn't been around was coz I was "too busy" with other things. Me. The friendless one who does nothing but work, read and watch movies all day (all at home and all alone, I might add). Busy. What a laugh and a half.

Photos by Josue Faustino.

I didn't mean for this blog post to turn sour. I just wanted you all to know that I am so over 2014 and everyone and everything in it. It has been a bad year for most of my friends the people that I know and I just can't wait for it to end, so I can start fresh, vanquish all of these bad vibes and find people worth keeping for a change.

What are your plans for 2015?